Anxiety
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She keeps a small photograph of Ian Brady in her purse. She says it’s because she likes his mouth- how it’s turned down and just so apathetic- but I think it runs deeper than that. Still, I love her all the same. When she sticks out her tongue as we spin in circles, I… Read more
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That diner we would sometimes eat at has closed down. Walked past it earlier today and there were old newspapers plastered over the windows. Just before, some guy handed me a pamphlet about Jesus. He didn’t say anything, just smiled as I passed him outside the library and that was it. Right now, it’s in… Read more
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Through doorways and windows into bubbles of being that pop at the merest of touches, I try to be gentle but everything always falls apart in my hands. Through the streets and alleys and cities and seas, I picture you in a black dress along with pouting, blood red lips. You could be evil.… Read more
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The morning begins with a cup of tea to take away the taste in my mouth. Beer and cigarettes mostly, but there’s other stuff as well like traces of lipstick and hints of despair mixed with cold sunshine from a balcony that belongs to my student days that has never left me. With dreams… Read more
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When she opens her legs, I see not only flesh and birth but prisms and sepulchres and the eyes of spiders and the eyes of God. Her legs are smooth and her sex shaven. On my belly with outstretched arms, I look inside of her and see the south coast of England, a pier with… Read more
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Jumping a red light we recite the words of Bukowski to make us stronger. Hitching up your skirt you watch my fevered reaction with glee and flash those blood-red gums of yours. Orgasms. Suburbia. Redheads into brunettes as young lovers become estranged in the time it takes to chew a nipple. Sometimes there’s milk, and at… Read more
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I’ve heard that love can only be felt and not seen. In this moment though, when you’ve taken parts of me with you and abandoned me. In this moment, where your voice echoes from wall to wall and imprisons my soul. In this very room, there were bodies intertwined and moans exchanged. In this moment, […]… Read more
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One Thursday morning in the month of July, I was born with my mother’s umbilical cord wrapped tight around my throat. In those first suffocating moments, dark forces were against me and have been ever since. The nature of being and the energies of dead galaxies- how they caress and scratch my face in… Read more
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Sheltered from the sun as the bees and birds circle overhead, I sink my fingers into the warm earth wishing to take one step closer to her. Removing each digit one after the other, I rub the soil on my right forefinger across my gums as if it were cocaine. I’m in the place… Read more
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When he pulls out I kick him and tell him I’m sick of his shit. There’s a woman out there who thinks about taking her Wüsthof Classic to her man’s gut. Horizontally, right across his belly button. She thinks about how it will feel to push the knife inside and if it’s possible to keep […]… Read more
