Author S. K. Nicholas

x and i: a novel

a journal for damned lovers vol 1-3

Anxiety

  •   I write about love and loss; about melancholia and things that exist on the outside, for those interest me the most. Her breasts, though, I told myself I wouldn’t, but, in the end, I’m just a man. Just an animal that can’t rise above its primal urges. She appeared before me from out of… Read more

  • Unbecoming Hearts

      They say there’s a cloud of chemicals travelling to the Milky Way. In thirty million years it will hit us. I say ‘us’, but by then there will be no traces of ‘us’ left. Everything we ever were and everything we hoped to be will have long been erased. As a species, we will… Read more

  • Black Lipstick

      Angels and butterflies that crumble beneath my touch. All those nights where the bodies crushed me- where so many faces did their best to make me just like them. So many women I wanted to be with, and so many trees that felt the warmth of my piss as I made the drunken journey back… Read more

  • Adore

      For her, I swim to the ocean floor and hunt puffa fish. Rising to the surface, I place them at her feet then suck the baby toe on her left foot. On Mount Olympus, we make love while the stench of whale guts haunts all those who get too close. She tastes of oranges,… Read more

  • Hips Like Cinderella

      I comb her wet hair and read a newspaper article about a young woman found disemboweled near when I went to school. It reminds me how I used to skip class by jumping over the fence at the back of the playing field before walking home along the old train tracks daydreaming about portals… Read more

  • Zephyrus Boy

      I’m on the verge of another breakdown when she crashes the car into a ditch by the side of the road. It’s dark, and as I remove her top and sweep the shards of glass from the back seat, my vision begins to blur. Shapes where there shouldn’t be shapes, her body morphs into… Read more

  • Nyx Girl

      Against my will, I bend like a flower to her light. She pulls me in, and although I resist, the taste of this whiskey makes her smile all the more real. I’m growing old distastefully. Said I wouldn’t; said I’d be more sensible, but where’s the fun in that? I passed the point of… Read more

  • Dream Cities

      The night is forever. Her gaze pornographic. Oh, the things I would do given half a chance. And the chance is there, only my desires go beyond the beauty she displays. To see her naked on my bed wouldn’t be enough. There’s a journey just waiting to be taken, but there’s no destination in… Read more

  • Night Creature

      Sleep takes me when the sun rises, and drops me off when it sets. Jack Daniels and a cigarette to toast the discovery of a new planet, only it’s not new, and it might not even be a planet, so I go for a walk to clear my head. It’s cold. The cemetery is… Read more

  • Embrace the Waste

      When the moment takes me, I walk the streets late at night when no one else is around. It’s a kind of perfection, as the empty souls are all asleep and for a while, I’m free. But I guess I’m just an empty soul too. Otherwise, I wouldn’t be wandering about when I should… Read more