Author S. K. Nicholas

x and i: a novel

a journal for damned lovers vol 1-3

Anxiety

  • Time and Time Again

      Back to the beginning. To those olden days. To those cosmic rays and the shine of your strange teeth as you drunkenly walk unfamiliar streets trying to remember your way home. Such streets recall a younger version of yourself even if that version no longer exists, yet somehow it still does, somewhere, out there,… Read more

  • star

        people are scum, girl so run and don’t look back just drift into outer space on a magic carpet and leave behind those human stains until the air in your lungs runs out and you end up being reborn in the heart of some faraway star the details are not important whether or… Read more

  • Backs Against the Wall

      There’s an image of me from a day now almost lost. A few years ago, it was. I’m about to leave the house and head down to the shops at the bottom of the road. I can feel myself on the verge of a panic attack but try and block it out. Try and… Read more

  • Gum Swappers

    There’s music that drifts to us from the radio, but it’s as dead as the cunts that make it. The only music we need is that of the sounds emanating from our bombed-out hearts. Imagine all the streets on fire as we chew a piece of gum and swap it between our foaming mouths. Imagine passing… Read more

  • Strange Vessels

      There’s blood on the sidewalk and flashes of your smile in the windows of all the stores that flow up and down the strip. In my pocket, there’s a lock of your hair, and when I take it out and breathe you in, the ground shakes and the buildings roll like marbles or those boulders… Read more

  • Way Station

      There’s a headache that lasts all day. Tried taking painkillers to ease the discomfort, but they didn’t work, so instead, I opened some wine. Didn’t taste great, but wine is wine, and although the headache refused to shift, in my alcoholic daze everything else felt just right. Watched The Thing. Have seen it before. The… Read more

  • sunflower seeds

        had another of those dreams where you’ve spread your legs and i’m inserting sunflower seeds deep inside of you in the hope they bloom as sometimes they do and as the colours shimmer before my eyes it’s as if tomorrow and yesterday were one and the same A Journal for Damned Lovers Volumes 1… Read more

  • 8th Street

        a small mouth and knowing eyes as the bus passes down streets we can’t seem to let go of smooth skin and beer cans held by fingers in fingerless gloves along with shared memories of events that never occurred oh, these drunken kisses where kisses should be amidst nights that never end and… Read more

  • All Creatures Great and Small

      All the planets and all the stars that form the constellations in our hearts are never far from colliding, and amidst these hidden collisions, there are Christmas ghosts that haunt and taunt and the halos of those that skip and dance on the corner of your street waiting for you to join them shining like… Read more

  • poem for you

        this is a poem for you and you alone i don’t need to mention your name because you know it’s about you, i just know you do this is a poem and a poem is what i give for a poem is war and peace and stillness and love and rough fucking and where… Read more