Author S. K. Nicholas

x and i: a novel

a journal for damned lovers vol 1-3

Peter Pan

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It’s not that I don’t care, or that I think I’m better somehow. It’s more to do with knowing when to walk away. People come and go. Some touch you, while others are mere wallpaper. It’s the ebb and flow of life. There’s a few that get beneath the skin, but mostly everyone you know is a familiar stranger. Like the guy who sells you your cigarettes, or the woman you bump into on your way to the park every Thursday. People you’ve known for years, who you’ve spent more time with than family- they’re as anonymous as a one night stand. As faceless as the pricks you see on TV who claim to be your friend. You can spend years in a relationship with someone; share your bed with them, shower with them. Cry together. Share the wonders of your minds together, and then just like that- it’s over. All ties severed. A mountain of intimacy forgotten as if it never even existed. How fickle we are. How two-faced, and yet when you make a stand and cut through the shit and tell the truth, you’re attacked for your honesty. Tell it as it is, and you lose people very quickly. It doesn’t bother me much, though. Give me a pen in one hand and a beer in the other, and I’m good. Do what you have to do, and love in whatever way you can. We’re not here to impress; we’re here to create; to speak a truth that denies death. Society is an illness, and those that worship it are best left to their own devices. They can’t be saved, and nor should they be. If you’re too afraid to stand alone and look inside your chest, then go back to whatever rock you came from. You won’t be missed. You had something going when you were a kid, but unlike Peter Pan, you grew up. You lost the magic.

27 responses to “Peter Pan”

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  2. “We’re not here to impress; we’re here to create; to speak a truth that denies death. ” No words except powerful and honest!!

    1. Thank you πŸ™‚ I’m glad you’re in agreement x

  3. ‘A mountain of intimacy forgotten as if it never even existed’
    Love this line and it’s so true, yet when it pertains to others I never believe it and my jealously strangles my common sense. Strange how our hearts & minds work

    1. We are a curious bunch, and although we have a achieved so much in our time here, there seems to be no end to our shortcomings. We’re all just accidents waiting to happen.

      1. lol… accidents waiting to happen… I like that, in a morbid way. Unfortunately, even if I hide out from life and never let anyone see me at my contrarywise worst, I’ll will still remain imperfect, so may as well live. x

      2. Yes, you’re right. Hiding from life would get us nowhere. At least we can take comfort from being aware of these things. Many just go through life with their eyes closed. Sometimes it feels as though that would be for the best, and yet we both know that’s just not us x

      3. I believe having a bad memory is my subconscious defense mechanism I consciously created. It’s why I never hold grudges and am able to keep my eyes wide open. You always inspire the rebel in me, thank you, my friend x

      4. Bad memories are a wonderful thing, aren’t they? πŸ˜‰ I think mine is my saving grace. I’m glad I inspire that part of you- long may it continue! I hope are well today and enjoying your rebellious streak πŸ™‚ x

  4. This post is like reading my own thoughts. Of course, you have a way of making even the ugly look pretty.

    1. Thank you, I’m touched you think so πŸ™‚

  5. This is wonderful…. But yet, I miss Peter Pan, I miss the magic.

    1. Thank you! It’s never too late, though. I was watching ‘Hook’ only the other day. Peter had lost it, but it soon came back.

    1. I’m glad you do! Thank you.

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    Elizabeth Helmich

    I think the only reason I’m still here is because there is a part of me that refuses to give up believing in magic. Perhaps I’ll finally meet a fairy on my death bed, not the worst way to go. πŸ™‚

    1. You and me both. Even when it seems impossible, that belief in magic still shines bright πŸ™‚ x

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        Elizabeth Helmich

        Either that, or we’re both entirely mad, and I’m more & more ok with that idea as well. Hugs to you my friend!

      2. Madness is alright. I can live with that πŸ™‚ x

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        Elizabeth Helmich

        It’s the people who pretend they’re normal I’m most afraid of… πŸ™‚

  7. “If you’re too afraid to stand alone and look inside your chest, then go back to whatever rock you came from. You won’t be missed. You had something going when you were a kid, but unlike Peter Pan, you grew up. You lost the magic.”

    Superb.

    Give me a piece of chalk and an alleyway wall and I’d put this up six feet high. And when I ran out of alleyway, I’d just carry on in the road.

    1. Thank you, my terrible friend. If only the only train-tracks were still there. We could follow in the footsteps of the guy who spent the summer scrawling mantras in chalk. Did we call him ‘The Reverend’? That name rings a bell for some reason.

      1. We did. I even wrote a short story about him. Called ‘The Reverend’ funnily enough. I curse time and frequent visits to the bottle for making me forget the words he wrote but as long as I have that story at least the legend will live.

      2. That’s it. I remember reading that story now. You emailed it to me along with some others if I remember correctly. I don’t remember any of the questions either, but I remember the question marks at the end of everything he wrote. I’m sure he’d be proud in knowing how much he influenced us.

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