The Light Pours Out of Me

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Deadfucks and gasoline and eroded enamel from drinking too many fizzy drinks. Lady bumps and ankle socks and fantasies involving a sea of broken wood that drowns a thousand Japanese workers as they stand in awe of the tsunami that comes racing towards them just like a comet. Blue Eyes. Green eyes. Dreams of mutilated dogs that whimper while licking their paws at the edge of reason. Red lips and bite marks on tightened throats because a taste of something sweet is what drives us to keep doing what we do. Beer and penetration. Night swimming and vampires from Scotland who butcher the innocent while over in America they make enough porn to outweigh all the angels in heaven. But we are what we are, and the dirtier the better because sin is what helps us in not fitting in. While you put on your stockings and comb your hair, I watch extreme wrestling on YouTube and grow hard at the sight of grown men shredding their skin with razor blades and barbed wire. Never been a fan of my own blood, but the red stuff of someone else never fails to make me twitch. Hulu dancers. Dust particles that land on your nose at 2 am as I remove my clothes while reciting the lyrics to ifwhiteamericatoldthetruthforonedayit’sworldwouldfallapart. Stubborn and drunk, I state that those who don’t enjoy the music of the Manic Street Preachers should be burned alive. Laughing at my antics, you spin like a ballerina before throwing yourself down upon the bed. Wet hair and mascara. Biscuit tins and flowers. In St Albans, we travel on buses during morning rain. Reading newspapers and chewing gum we cling to dear life while preparing for the worst. We make out that we’re survivors, but all we are is witnesses, and as hard as I try, I can’t keep pretending it’s ever going to be different.

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  1. You leave my head spinning with truth. The world has started to feel like a crazy game of ring around the rosy and my hands are sweaty and starting to slip. Will we get sucked into the vaccum of space I wonder?

  2. I bookmarked this and have read it over a few times….it merits a comment, it merits much more. What I can do is let you know how drawn I was into this, I felt that you had compacted time and existence into a paragraph that was racing yet standing still. Beer and penetration. Stubborn and drunk. Biscuit tins and flowers. I think these are all things that make us fall in love, I suppose it is up to each of us as to what happens next. Truly brilliant, Harlon

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