Author S. K. Nicholas

x and i: a novel

a journal for damned lovers vol 1-3

Dysmorphia

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Jumping a red light we recite the words of Bukowski to make us stronger. Hitching up your skirt you watch my fevered reaction with glee and flash those blood-red gums of yours. Orgasms. Suburbia. Redheads into brunettes as young lovers become estranged in the time it takes to chew a nipple. Sometimes there’s milk, and at others, there’s the slightest touch of our hands as we pretend not knowing each other. If you give me the gun I’ll place it beneath his chin and blow his brains out and as you dance in the spray of blood and fragments of bone that hang suspended in thin air, I’ll take a photo so your beauty won’t fade like everything else. We are the perfect storm. We stand outside of time. As I’m puffing away on my cigarette and blowing smoke out the window you tell me how you finger yourself fantasising about Elizabeth Báthory. Slipping those very same fingers into my mouth one by one, you go ahead and place your lips against my neck before declaring that nothing will come between us, and no matter what will become of our mortal remains, we shall never be apart. When I first saw you I knew it was more than just lust. Don’t get me wrong, the image of your nude body flowering at my tongue kept me up all night, and the geometry of your smile left me in a daze for weeks, but there was something that passed back and forth between our hearts that spoke to me louder than anything I had ever heard. Eyeliner and freeways. Push-up bras and shattered glass that shimmers against your chin. If you let me cut you, I promise to be gentle. If you give yourself to my whims, I’ll do my best to turn these days into dreams.

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32 responses to “Dysmorphia”

  1. Damn. Excellent, powerful, emotion piece.

    1. Thank you! I’m touched by your kind words.

      1. I like this very much, great stuff x 🙂

      2. Thank you, Holly, that means a lot to me 🙂 x

  2. Hardcore love, badass. BTW Seether is an excellent soundtrack when reading your work

    1. I’ve not heard of them before, so I’m going to check them out. Thank you!

      1. Alt metal out of A.Africa, they’re pretty damn good

      2. I look forward to giving them a try.

  3. Intoxicating, heady stuff. OldePunk is right– hardcore, badass love. Damn I miss my 20s sometimes!

    1. Thank you! And me too! They’re not that far behind me, and yet they’re behind me all the same!

      1. Everyone expects you to be a real grown-up in your 30s. Highly overrated.

      2. Exactly. Grown-ups are not to be trusted.

      3. I am certainly doing my best to resist. A few months ago my teenagers told me I was the “adultiest adult” they knew. I think they meant it as a compliment(?). Most depressing thing they ever said to me!

      4. Haha! I think it’s time for you to rebel!

      5. Agreed. Tattoo #2, here I come!

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  5. Even by your own high standards, this was – particularly – excellent. You dirty old man.

    1. Thank you. I’m very pleased you enjoyed it. And yes, a dirty old man is what I am now.

  6. Just fucking amazing! 😍

  7. Thrilling, enchanting, filled with emotion. Great job!

    1. Thank you! I’m so pleased you enjoyed it.

  8. This is going to be my muse, I’m damn sure. Absolutely gorgeous this. And you. x

    1. I’m so glad it is. That you picked it out makes me happy, it really does. May you shine even brighter, my friend x

  9. “Eyeliner and freeways. Push-up bras and shattered glass that shimmers against your chin. If you let me cut you, I promise to be gentle.” – sometimes I like to pretend all your texts speak specifically to me. You have that gist and knife to do to a reader. It is brutal, honest, and a sweet lie at the same time. It is struggle but also strawberries.

    1. How kind of you to say. Your words have made me smile. I’m so pleased you feel that way about my writing, and even more so that you feel they speak to you on such a personal level. There is an intimacy between us through such imagery that few will ever know x

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