Author S. K. Nicholas

x and i: a novel

a journal for damned lovers vol 1-3

Candles. Lovers. Ghosts

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The death toll from the burnt-out tower in London keeps rising. There are whispers that the number could hit triple figures, and that some of the victims may never be identified. It’s one of life’s many horrors. These atrocities that snuff out so many before their time- there have been many before, and no doubt they’ll be plenty to come. Sounds callous of me to say, but death and unbecoming are integral parts of existence, and when it comes to drawing the short straw, more often than not it’s the poor and weak that get it in the throat the most, and ain’t nothing gonna change, not now, not soon, not ever. On the news, they show images of those still missing, and with each hour that passes, they move a step closer to being confirmed dead. So many children. So many smiling faces that got snuffed out in the blink of an eye while most of us were sleeping. While we were dancing in clouds of dreams, they were burning, and now they are bones as we are ghosts. These June nights are bright so late. They speak to me through the window as I try and write. Memories. Shadows. Lights that wave hello from so far away. There are fields, so many fields. There are pathways that turn into alleyways that cut through graveyards where crows dance among the blades of grass that grow as long as these lazy evenings. There are scents that tickle my nose that are reminiscent of your smile and how it would often spread from dimple to dimple at the sight of a simple wonder. When they zoom in on Grenfell Tower, I keep picturing all the bodies waiting to be discovered within the empty husk of what it now is. The news reporters look so serious and intense, and the ties they wear so sharp and solemn. They speak quietly with remorse, but it’s just a job, and this time next week they’ll be stressing the importance of something else, and so the vertical catacomb will become just another story. Just another page in the book we keep writing of which they’ll be no end.

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22 responses to “Candles. Lovers. Ghosts”

  1. You capture the melancholy so well

  2. Did I ever mention that I was partial to SK’s writing? I continue to be amazed.

  3. I feel your world-weariness in this. Sometimes bleeding for lost humanity feels like it will leave us dry husks. I don’t want to lose my ability to feel, to mourn these atrocities but it so easy to be numb. You cut through the numbness with”the ties they wear so sharp and solemn”

    1. Thank you, C. World-wearyess and numbness are daily occurrences that are hard to fight, but fight them we shall. Otherwise we’re pretty much dead in the water.

      1. I do worry about you. I am all too familiar with how world-worriness and numbness drags at our souls

      2. When I feel bad I listen to There is a Light That Never Goes Out, by The Smiths. It always pulls me back from the brink.

      3. I will add it to the rotation. I tend to have a bad habit of choosing the heart-breakingly beautiful playlist when I am down and pick the scabs a little more.

      4. I’m certain you’ll like that song. It’s one of happiest/saddest songs I know.

      5. I do like it very much. Thank you. Its been a rough day and it was comforting. I had also forgotten how much I loved How Soon is Now?

  4. Quite sad. RIP to the lost ones. Nicely written 👍🏾

    1. Thank you. And yes, rest in peace to them all x

  5. I hope you’re feeling OK today?

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    saynotoclowns

    Amazing.
    “vertical catacomb”
    Well, all of it really.
    If only they could know you encased their precious lives in such beautiful words.

    1. I’m touched you think so.
      I guess it’s the least we can do, isn’t it? Give them a few words to show them we care.

      1. Indeed! How these tragedies just seem to blur away. It’s gut wrenching. Truly.

      2. And with each new day comes another..

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        saynotoclowns

        It does seem like a nightmare we won’t be waking from any time soon…

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