Author S. K. Nicholas

x and i: a novel

a journal for damned lovers vol 1-3

Relationships

  • Crave It, Always

      Words as bullets, pumped straight into the guts of all those paled faced doubters. Fistfuls of creation, shoved into the mouths of all those who dare not dream. Am I stacker of shelves for Walmart, or am I a dreamer of fantastic thoughts, running through the streets of Berlin with my bearded face turned… Read more

  • Fragments Of Desire

    I pluck teeth like feathers. I fuck like a machine. Veins and fears of the future. The tears run down my face, my heart beats with unstoppable salvation. Take my hand, and let’s surf the wave. Take my hand, and cocoon yourself with me far away from pain. Eyes of snow, you smile like an… Read more

  • This Mess We’re In

    she’s got a cheating heart  but so have i  we’re both as bad  as each other  i want to hurt her  to make  the tears fall from her  lying eyes  to make  her heart break as i tell her  that i never  really loved her  she’s lonely wreckage  a wilted flower  and it’s no fault … Read more

  • Tangled Thoughts

    The pages of a book, fluttering in the breeze. Something feels wrong. Something out of place. I’ve been so ill. Ever since she left me, there’s been nothing at all. Faces come and go, but they reek of poverty. Poverty of the soul. Too much cheapness. Too many shadows. Haunted by mistakes, by passing feelings.… Read more

  • Don’t Wanna Wake Up Next To Your Stretched Skin

    waking up next to your stretched skin my eyes hurt from the dirty sunlight that pours in through the window head cracked like an egg mouth dry with shame, suffocating so heavy, so dead this is what i wanted this is what i get cheapness, drowning in empty acts that attack the very heart of… Read more

  • Curled Up Like A Tiny Animal

    Walking through the woods on my birthday, and it’s pissing down with rain. I’m drenched. My cigarette goes out. Stood sheltering beneath a tree, a fox runs out from a bush. It looks at me, stops, then runs back. I’m tired, and there’s nothing to do. I don’t want to do anything though. Except write,… Read more

  • Sometimes

    sometimes, love leaves me like a dream upon waking and although i fight to keep it it just won’t stay sometimes, my heart aches from all my mistakes all those words that i kept silent hidden from the ones i loved for so long sometimes, i wish i could make the right move and not… Read more

  • Know

    they say they love you but it’s bullshit they just love the way you make them feel not that it bothers me of course that’s how it works and i’m just as guilty i know Read more

  • Days Of Creation

    After finishing my shift at work today, I now have nine days off. This time last year, I was on holiday with my then lover. Years before that, I was on holiday with a pregnant lover in a log cabin. This time, it will be spent alone. In some ways it’s sad, and it makes… Read more

  • Let’s Get Lost

    give me a lover who dreams like i do not another obsessed by the mundane oh, the banality of our lives lusted after with blind stupidity in the blind hope that to become like everyone else will somehow set us free instead, take me by the hand and dare to step outside let’s get lost… Read more