Not Lost

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There are no words, only particles of faith that slip between my fingers as the wind blows against my window. There are no giddy heights to fall from. No sentiments that can ease a bruised soul. There is, however, a sense of beauty that few these days seem to be in possession of. How easy it is to overlook these precious beings; to pass them by because they choose not to whore themselves like the rest. To be humble and gracious is a gift that can’t be bought or received, it’s earned by being kind; by accepting nothingness and embracing selflessness. As the nights pass with regularity, I write to save myself. I write to give myself meaning, and every so often, I stumble across a memory from my past that leaves me numb. One lived, twice known. So many things I didn’t see the first time around. So many acts of wonder that somehow escaped me. How it tears me apart to realise things so long after they’ve occurred, but when I do, I’m forced to stop what I’m doing. Perfectly still, I remember the smallest of details, and when the love of each act overcomes me, it’s not long before tears form in the corner of my tired eyes. I’m a relic. A mess of what should be human, but when someone shows an ounce of tenderness- when they show some sense of pity- there’s nothing more to do other than be thankful. It’s a cruel world, but it’s not lost.

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  1. “not all those who wander are lost” a famous writer once said… and it’s true! this is lovely. leaves me wondering, and my mind wandering… some may argue (myself included) that i lost my mind years ago… but hey… i like it here.

    as it would seem you do too!

  2. This was truly wonderful. Raw and honest and resonates keenly with me. I think many forget those little things. How kindness costs nothing but can mean the world to someone. How there is good and beauty in the world, often right under our noses. I try to live this way each day because to not do so would be to not experience life. To not really live. Thank you for writing this.

    • I’m touched by your response, and I’m so glad it resonated with you. Sometimes it feels like such a struggle, but when we are able to take that step back, it really does put things into perspective. I’m happy you also try to approach each day with this mentality. It’s comforting to know that there are good people out there willing to do things differently 🙂 x

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