If you let down your guard and show yourself for what you are, the days as you know them will come to an end. If you stand in your back garden and undress with the rain splashing against your face, then the hour has come for you to show your true hand. When I’m not working, I’m writing, and when I’m not writing, I’m dancing like Ian Curtis in the spare bedroom with the curtains drawn. Downing several energy drinks, I lock myself away and snap my head back and forth while thrashing my arms around for the best part of the afternoon making no attempt to hide my strange ways. It helps me to stay sharp, you see. When you come around, I give you my biographies on Moors Murderer Ian Brady and tell you to make notes on what you find. He was a bad man, yet he knew the other side, and the other side is important. You need to know this because you’re too pure- you need to see what it’s like to suffer- to breathe in the darkness. If you don’t, then your beauty will be for nothing. Be clear. Be vigilant. But don’t behave. Know you can break hearts but also know that such a gift is secondary- it’s breaking minds that matter most. When I don’t want to fuck you, you complain. You say it’s because I’m not interested anymore. You insinuate I’m seeing someone behind your back, hence my lack of interest in making a move, but my reasons run far deeper. The flesh is a gift, but intimacy can’t be measured by mere pleasure alone. To know someone is to sit with them looking in from the edge of the abyss. It’s to open up those doors you wish remained shut. Go ahead and pick at those scabs, girl, and tell me what you see inside.
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Categories: Lucid
S. K. Nicholas 
Speaking my language S.K. “To know someone is to sit with them looking in from the edge of the abyss. It’s to open up those doors you wish remained shut. Go ahead and pick at those scabs, girl, and tell me what you see inside.” Yes. This.
I’m so glad it is- thank you 🙂 x
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This incredible piece by S.K. Nicholas feels like the voice of my shadow self.
Thank you!
Truly my pleasure.
🙂
Great piece. It’s the picking the scab bits that does it. If only someone could be bothered 😊
That’s very kind, thank you 🙂 I think such intimacy is like gold dust.
Yes it is 😊
I guess that when you find it, it makes up for all the dull bits in between.
It’s well worth it😊
Gotta dig deep…till it bleeds. Great stuff Stephen! x
Thank you, Holly 🙂 x
Thank you 🙂 x
This is a great piece, spoken to my soul. Well done.
I’m honoured. Thank you for such kind words x
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Thank you! 🙂
Another 🎯 S.K !!!!
Thank you! You’re too kind 🙂
I love your writings!!
I’m touched. Thank you! 🙂
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Oooooo Snap! Another 🎯 By S.K. Nicholas.
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I pressed this in my blog, its very powerful what you said, its like you are inside my mind, the way i think and feel about things, very well written 🙂
That was very kind of you, thank you! I’m touched that you feel that way about my words. It’s a joy to me knowing that the magic is real 🙂
Thank you for taking the time to reply to my comment 🙂 the magic is definitely real. Your words go deeper than deep like the roots of the oldest wise trees and the deeper the roots the more knowledge it possesses. Hope it makes sense?
That you have compared me to a tree is wonderful- it has made my day- and I sincerely thank you! You make perfect sense. I hope the magic is strong with you today, and I hope it burns long into the night 🙂
I am so happy that you are pleased and happy with what I said. I am a child of the night I am sure it will burn all through the night 🙂
Powerfully great post straight to the heart! Good job animal daddy! 👌
Haha! Animal daddy indeed 🙂 But thank you, though, I’m so pleased you enjoyed it.
Loved it! Keep them coming bruh! ✌
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Thank you!
that last sentence… genius.
Thank you, K x
Awesome piece, my friend!
Thank you very much! 🙂
Know you can break hearts but know that such a gift is secondary- it’s breaking minds that matters most.
Gospel.
I’m so glad you agree! Thank you 🙂
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“Know you can break hearts but know that such a gift is secondary- it’s breaking minds that matters most.”
How very kind of you. Thank you ever so much!
Sounds like you’d found what’s comfortable for you to be, and now, you just have to wait for that someone who appreciates the true you to come around and find you…
That’s very true. I hope you’re right, my friend.