Picked up a sandwich after work and ate it in bed upon returning home. It wasn’t the greatest of sandwiches, but it filled my belly and gave me enough energy to write before I burned out and caught an hour’s nap. There were dreams. Dreams of the pub I once worked in, and of the two cats that belonged to an ex-girlfriend. I think one of them is dead now, which is a shame, because when animals die the colours of the world diminish that little bit more. Just before I woke, there was something to do with X, and her old room. The mess it always used to be in. The clothes scattered across the floor. The empty Coke cans, and the pile of train tickets next to her TV. When I came to, my own room was dark and her words were still ringing in my ears. After lighting a smoke and looking out the window at the darkening town, I wondered to myself if there really are such things as wormholes, and if you were to go through one, just where and when would you find yourself? Would I be back in her room, or would I be at the edge of time just hanging around waving at ghosts, those ghosts that do nothing other than drift because drifting is all there is to do when you’re nothing but dust? The sky says so little and so much. It speaks and yet so few ever listen, and even when they do, they misunderstand the meaning behind the words completely. Went on Wikipedia and read more about pulsars. And then exoplanets and where to find them. And then I listened to some Joanna Newsom and imagined myself flying through strange skies with no need or desire for human contact. It was a nice feeling to taste such freedom, and for a few moments, a sense of calm engulfed my soul that left me not caring about anything other than the delicate nature of my spiritual journey through the sea of shit known as the hand of man. Closing my eyes, I saw her delicate face and a garden of animals. The animals were dancing around her, and as she sang to them, my feet left the ground, and I was at one with everything, from her soul to the souls of all the animals, and of all those that have gone before who now travel without having to ask the reasons why.
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Categories: Lucid
I’m glad the animals are making a reappearance.
“The empty Coke cans, and the pile of train tickets next to her TV.”
Normality and untidiness – it appeals to me SO much more than schmaltzy and flowery. So, thank you x
Me too. I’ve missed their little dancing souls.
And yes! The little overlooked things carry so much more potential romance than the usual flowers and chocolates. I’m glad we’re in agreement x
I am too. x
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So beauiful, i love your kindness to animals , it tells so much about a person, their humanity.
Thank you, Holly.
Animals will always be my first concern. People are just too selfish and fickle. Animals, though, they’re pure and without prejudice x
And love us unconditionally. My dog Tide will be 11 in May, heโs such a baby. Sleeps on my bed. I try not to smell doggie ๐ถ X
What a cool name for a dog! And so cool you let him sleep on your bed! ๐ x
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This is wonderful. So many times when I read your words, the glimpses of your soul, I feel as if I am transported (perhaps via wormhole??) to another place and time. Itโs magical and touching and sometimes intimate and I always come back feeling like a more real person, having grown or been touched in some way. Thank you for that.
Thank you ever so much, my dear friend.
Your kind words have made my day, and I’m so touched to have received them.
That my own words take you to a certain place and leave you feeling realer, is, without doubt, the greatest thing I could ever ask for. Such magic is priceless, and above all, good for the soul x
Humans are parts animals part demonic and angelic and one with everything that exists though they realize it only after a journey and pulsars are my favorite too–I mean pictures. And supernovae–have you ever heard sounds coming from them? This was so beautiful to read!
Thank you, my friend!
Yes, human beings are a mess of wonder indeed, aren’t they? So much destruction and beauty in each and every bag of bones.
Yes, ever so puzzling, ever so painful, ever so messy and sublime. You’re most welcome my friend. Have a great time ahead ๐
Beautiful reminiscences
Thank you!