Author S. K. Nicholas

x and i: a novel

a journal for damned lovers vol 1-3

Prose

  • 80’s

      I’m afraid of the 80’s, and even though the decade doesn’t exist anymore, somehow it does. I’m a relic of a grotesque time- a product of a damned generation spat out from its mother’s womb into a world undeserving of anything other than oblivion. As a grown man, I know that flowers and women are beautiful,… Read more

  • Bad Moon Rising

      She came into my life like a comet, ripping apart the days and setting fire to what didn’t fit into her way of seeing things. With rain falling and leaves sticking to our worn out faces, we left work and walked back to mine down darkened streets that appeared so different from how they had… Read more

  • Anywhere

      Moving up a spiral staircase that never seems to end, the urge to piss myself is almost too strong to resist. Taking two steps at a time, I leap to the top and push open the red door. The walls within are red as well, red like the walls of her womb. Shaking the… Read more

  • Never Recover

      There are tiny scars on my hand where pet rats used to bite me as a child. There are more scars from barbed wire escapades and where shards of glass sliced the tips of my teenage fingers on the tops of storage containers climbed in the search for doorways made of American dreams from… Read more

  • Portrait and a Dream

      Life is a hangover. It’s the mental image of a nude woman on my bed being replaced by that of a landscape consisting of dog walkers and kite enthusiasts. Oh, the light hurts my eyes; it makes me feel too human, and above everything, I wish never to feel human. Pour me some wine,… Read more

  • Secret Sun

      Much like Jean-Baptiste Grenouille, I wish to be far removed from others. I want to live beneath a mountain and do nothing other than occupy myself with what’s going on in my head; to be lost in a reality where conformity is as useless as the prayers of those who kneel before God asking… Read more

  • Some Kind of Wizard

      A Japanese girl with a soft and shapely bosom slides her fingers in. Watching but pretending I’m not, she spreads herself as my tongue glides over my cracked lower lip. Her pubic hair is a forest, just like the one where the animals play. They continue after all these years of neglect, and although… Read more

  • Love Cat

      As birds fall from the sky, and things fall apart in my hands, the light of temptation caresses my weary bones. In my electric skull, divine intervention is still a thing even though I should know better. In her mirror, she sees beauty, and yet a pretty face is neither here nor there. They… Read more

  • Hours

        Near to the woods where she lost her virginity, smoke rises from the lake and wraps around my ankles. She wants me to drink from the furry cup, but I’m tired, so I tell her my tongue is covered in ulcers I got from eating with unclean utensils. She doesn’t believe me, but… Read more

  • Wave Upon Wave

      Listening to love songs from the 90’s, my headache is bettered only by my need to drain the bottle dry and fix the holes that keep on letting in the rain. There are blood blisters in my mouth, and as the skies continue to darken day after day, summer slowly fades without so much… Read more