Author S. K. Nicholas

x and i: a novel

a journal for damned lovers vol 1-3

Prose

  • The Little Things

    The leaves she kicked up as she flew danced for a while before falling back down to the ground. They were dead and yet they danced; full of life even though their time had already come to pass. Not many would’ve noticed. Not many would’ve have cared. But she noticed, and she cared, because the… Read more

  • The Dance of Life

    As the shape that would be her father shifted from bear to badger and bird to butterfly, she followed after him as he moved towards the light. All around her, the animals continued to shift too. From feather and fur to shimmering orbs of golden colour, they whistled and sang as the music grew louder,… Read more

  • Exist in Song

    Among the orbs that passed before her eyes, she could make out faces. Some she recognised, while others were as strange to her as the moment itself. She would later swear that among those faces, she saw those belonging to her grandparents, not as she had known in life, which had been all wrinkly and… Read more

  • Through the trees, the bright light shone. What the light was made of she couldn’t say, but the closer she got, the more she felt it bore into her. The light was unlike any other. It sang of such beauty, and although the words were so similar to her own, they were somehow different. It… Read more

  • The Moment of Arrival

    The ripples of the lake waved like hands, and as we floated above them, the animals stood on their hind legs, howling in wild celebration at our approach, and for the first time in my life, I didn’t feel like a failure or some poor excuse of a man, but a superhero ready to save… Read more

  • Under the Stars

    Whether or not I had sought the fox out or it was him that had come for me, I couldn’t quite say, but I was a firm believer in fate, and so it seemed to me that even in those years I considered myself lost, the two of us had been destined to meet. How… Read more

  • A Dream Upon Waking

    As we drifted over the body of oily black water, I felt the strangest of sensations buzzing in my belly. It wasn’t the strangeness of my situation- that I was a fox seemed as natural to me as my loneliness- no, it was that somehow only now did I seem aware of the life I… Read more

  • Elegy to the Void

    Leaping into the air, I thrashed my tail while taking a bite out of the sky. Chewing a mouthful of stars, the fox followed my lead, propelling himself upwards. Yelping as his feet left the ice, he plunged his teeth into the moon as if it were made of cheese and gulped it down before… Read more

  • Strange Shapes

    With my paws sliding across the ice, the milky moon puffed its cheeks and blew out a gust of wind that pushed me like a pair of invisible hands. Sailing on that frozen sea, I yelped and shrieked, and as the animals watched from the shore of trees, life didn’t seem that bad at all.… Read more

  • The Sounds of Life

    Away from the road we move through the trees, guided by a song she’s been singing since the moment she first opened her eyes as a slippery babe smelling of butter and cheese and soft cotton blankets knitted by affectionate grandmothers in awe of the ever-turning wheel of life. As if understanding our plight, the… Read more