My first book will be a collection of prose taken from my blog spanning a period of two years from January ’14 to January ’16. I received it back from the proofreaders the other day, and now I’m in the process of making the necessary amendments, writing the blurb, designing the covers, etc. Titled “A Journal for Damned Lovers” (who would have guessed?), it captures a period of my life that saw me transform from a lovesick loser into a lovesick loser who decided to pick up a digital pen and do something about it. Reading back through the entries, I’m proud of my journey and yet sad at what has been lost. At times it makes for bleak reading, especially in the early days, and yet there’s a thread of hope that runs from page to page that makes it all seem worthwhile somehow. Even though it’s not that long ago, there are passages that seem to have been written by someone else. Those fleeting moments when I was in love- was that really me? Did I really come out with such happy and carefree stuff? To think of those I was once in love with, and how my obsessive thirst for creation and solitude drove a wedge between us. To think of the quiet nights where it was just me, WordPress, and a pack of beer. Sometimes the ideas coming thick and fast, others with me staring at a blank screen desperately trying to conjure some magic from out of thin air. As well as love and despair, there’s been anger, defeat, calamity, and believe it or not, even humour. Old words tend to embarrass me, y’know, reading those moments when there’s a flicker of light on the horizon knowing it never went anywhere. Looking back at what was once a revelation but is now merely a discarded thought. Well, it’s all there, soon to become a book. A book born from failed love and years of keeping my emotions under lock and key. And those years… Who was that guy? How did he think he could get away with not feeling anything? Did he really think he could go through life as a machine? Maybe, possibly. I can’t remember now, but I’m not the same as I used to be. I miss the carefree days of being a simple lover, but there’s no going back. I made a decision to become someone else, and better or for worse, that someone is writing these words. There’s no beer tonight, just a little music and a cloud of melancholy that won’t seem to shift. Anyway, I hope that when the book is released it will be something you might like to read. It may have been a lonely journey, and yet I’ve not been alone. To anyone who has ever read my words and taken the time to reach out, I thank you for everything, because without you, this adventure would’ve been meaningless.
Stephen
Categories: Lucid
Author S. K. Nicholas 
How nice! I’ve been wondering what was going on with your book but didn’t want to ask. Figured it will be done when it’s done. Congratulations on getting one step closer to your first book. I know a lot of hard work has been put into it and I also hope many people will purchase and read it. I’m all set to click on Amazon when it’s released.
Thank you! I’m ever so pleased and grateful for your support; it means a lot to me. It’s been an up and down journey, but if I can produce something that will make a good read for you, than it will have been worth it 🙂 I hope you are well today and life is being good to you x
You’re welcome and I’m well, just finished breakfast and am just beginning to write.
I hope it goes well! I’ve just woken after a nap and there’s heavy rainfall outside. My favourite! 🙂
Will there a book signing in the future? I’ll take time off from life for this!
I don’t think I’m quite at that level yet, but maybe one day! Be well, my friend, and thank you 🙂 x
Ahh can’t wait to read it x
I hope so! 🙂 x
Your writing is truly something special. This is such an accomplishment. A huge congratulations to you.
Thank you from the bottom of my heart, Rachel, for both your support and your kindness. I hope your writing is going well, and that your family are all in good health this weekend x
You are welcome! Writer’s have to stick together, I think only fellow writers understand the madness.😉 We are doing great, have a wonderful weekend yourself!
I think so, too 🙂 Glad to hear it! x
awesome congrats
Thank you Chrissy 🙂 x
Wishing you all the best!
What an incredible two year journey you have been on. Can’t wait to read it!
Thank you! I hope I can make it worth reading for you. Your support has been amazing- I’ve appreciated it immensely. Much love to you this weekend, I hope you are feeling good and succeeding with all that you do x
I think everyone is embarrassed by old words. But I have a feeling yours are still better then most. Can’t wait to read it.
Thank you, my friend 🙂 We are what we are, and for better or for worse, we can’t change where we’ve come from. I hope you’re enjoying the weather today; it’s been pissing down here ever since I woke from my afternoon nap 🙂 x
We most certainly are. Those who learn and change from their experience are worth being around. I am! Haha maybe you slept through the sun! I had heavy rain and thunder all morning. Then delicious autumn sun this afternoon. There might be some left over for you tomorrow. X
I think you had all of the luck. It was grey and raining here all day long. I like the rain, but not so the grey. Still, mustn’t grumble! You’re right; those who learn and change are worth knowing 🙂 x
what an incredible accomplishment! congratulations. x
Thank you, my friend 🙂 Much love to you today! x
Cannot wait to read your work! All the best for the journey ahead. Hope it’s a magical one, you deserve it all. Love and best wishes. x
Thank you! I hope both our journeys are magical 🙂 Love and best wishes to you, too, my friend x
Congrats, Stephen! Good to see you growing–as a writer and as a human!
Thank you, Mitch! Your words are very kind and I appreciate them dearly 🙂
Congrats Stephen. You deserve it. You’re a gifted writer. i enjoy reading all your writings. Have a great week ahead.
Thank you my friend. You’re very kind. I hope your week is filled with words and beauty.
It’s always been. Thanks too Stephen. Have a great week ahead.