Author S. K. Nicholas

x and i: a novel

a journal for damned lovers vol 1-3

  • Look Closer

    All those things we overlook. Those moments we leave behind because we’re too busy chasing a destination that will never arrive. So frantic are we rushing forwards, counting down the days so eager for what the future holds. But the future never comes. We are here only now. We exist only in this moment. Plans… Read more

  • The Maelstrom Of Our Hearts

    In the woods. In the forest. Gunshot wounds and flowering angel lips. Death, falling like leaves. Piles of rocks, symbols of witches. Broken branches, and shadows growing long like the day. Eyes for teeth. Tightened rope. There’s a river that flows back to the source. There’s a creek shaped like a womb. It gives birth… Read more

  • The Great Attractor

    As long as it exists, your mind will never be free. Burning dogs in Hiroshima. Genital Mutilation on the streets of Amsterdam. Cars buried in snow. Cigarettes perched on the tips of bony fingers. Tasty ripe breasts. Juicy like fruit. In mind and body, we merge like waves. Spinning plates and cloudless highs. Formentera Lady,… Read more

  • Come Sail Away

    The still point of the turning world. Don’t talk about the weather, talk about love instead. Run fingers through auburn hair, and fall through the floor. Heartbeats echo. They spin without reason. Footsteps in the sand. Melting hands upon hips so soft. Stars and cosmic rays, colliding like cars on the freeway. Music makes us… Read more

  • Lover

    swallow a mouthful of wine swallow a mouthful of me watch the smoke from my mouth dance across your body watch these hands do what they want girl afraid just wishing to be touched to be loved like only a lover should so come on over come make us one with madness let’s find a… Read more

  • In Heaven, Everything Is Fine

    take hold of what I am, plug me in feel the burn of a maddened, bad machine eating your bones scream those animal screams as my body moves into yours let me have what I wan’t let me have it all every ounce of your flesh in my hands oh, pretty girl just give me… Read more

  • Inside

    These people that throw away their love. These humans who let go far too easily. Such petty interests they hold dear. Such low opinions they must have of what happiness consists of. Life is quick. Better to go with the flow than to take a moment to step back and look around. That’s how it… Read more

  • Morning

    Hangovers. Baths full of boiling water to burn away sin. Squatting over a toilet and letting the contents of hell fall out in all its unholy glory. Take a few asprin. Wash them down with an energy drink. Sit on the bed and look out the window. Houses and windows. Mute and lonely, stood petrified… Read more

  • The Midnight Express

    Hoisted into thin air. Stripped naked and brutally whipped. Flesh cuts and bruised like an apple. Body aches. A mind so tired. Alcohol numbed and stained with smoke. Sun scorched and distorted. Burning dogs running through the panicked streets of Vallejo. The midnight express. A state of mind. A way to visit places now lost… Read more

  • A Ladybird Saved My Soul

    When I lost my mind, I would stay up late at night talking to a ladybird. Sat on the living room floor with a bottle of wine between my legs, it would appear and sit with me until I went to bed. I’d just broken up with my girlfriend. All my fault of course. Guilt… Read more