Author S. K. Nicholas

x and i: a novel

a journal for damned lovers vol 1-3

Prose

  • Sticky and Sweet and Dirty

    As she wiggles her toes while chattering her teeth, he collapses on top of her with his kisses and words, words that seem to make no sense but there’s meaning behind them she’s sure, and so she wraps her arms around him holding him tight. The sweat and scent of their bodies mix to make… Read more

  • Brains Turned to Mush

    Cold sunlight pours through the window pinching each and every one of her toes. Stretching and groaning, she rolls onto her side looking out onto the world finding a bright blue sky, and yet the leaves on the trees are falling, and there are no birds in sight. Not a single one. They’re too cold,… Read more

  • Not Yet Morning

    Breathing in warm, dusty air, X wakes in darkness to find herself buried beneath a mixture of duvet and the limbs of her sleeping man. He’s got an arm wrapped around her waist as well as his left leg, while between her own she can feel a little of his seed trickle out before dripping… Read more

  • Something Without a Name

    With the stars shining so bright, we trembled from the cold but kissed regardless, and as our animal spirits played their games somewhere above, so the connection was made. It’s hard for me to say if I realised it at the time, but looking back, it was in that kiss that everything changed. In the… Read more

  • The Fox and the Crow

    Waiting at a set of traffic lights, X turns her back against the wind, facing me with hunched shoulders. Despite her tucking it into her collar, her hair’s blown this way and that before reaching out as if to touch my skin, and when it does, I sniff its scent, and my inner blues diminish as… Read more

  • Now and Again

    We pay for our stuff and leave the store holding hands. It’s cold so cold, and as she tries pulling me back into the warmth of indoors, I squeeze her tight and tell her to endure. With a grumble, she digs her mouth into the collar of her coat while with a blink of my… Read more

  • Sweet Treats

    Hot on her heels, I snatched a pack of buns from the shelf to my right, and aiming them as if I were pitching a baseball, lobbed them at the back of her head. Hitting her square on, she screamed while almost tripping over. Staggering forwards like a drunk, she eventually fell into a display… Read more

  • Meal for Two

    Entering the store, we jumped up and down to warm ourselves. To others, we looked beyond excited when really, we were shivering and frozen to the bone. When she reached out her hand and pressed it against my face, I couldn’t help but yelp like a beaten dog. Her flesh was ice-cold, so I took… Read more

  • The Music Within

    Fingers linked, I lead her through the underpass that takes us to Sainsbury’s. She’s got her mouth buried in the collar of her jacket, and every time she says something, I can’t make out the words, so I turn and ask her to repeat herself. She doesn’t though. I’d say she’s doing it on purpose,… Read more

  • Tonight

    Eating her donut, X made a range of noises showing her satisfaction, and when she was done, licked her fingers with a cheeky glint in her eye. In the ever-dimming sky, the first stars began to show. Pale and almost not there, the journey of their light filled me with a gut-wrenching sense of melancholy.… Read more